juznobody’s blog

....how's my day? well it fils like i got a routine that repeats each and everyday. that's wat my day was like. pretty same as yesterday. i'm finding things that could make my time worthwhile. i am bored with playing pc games everyday. i just want to wsit in frot of my pc listening to music. hay....that again, it feels like, of all the things i do, listening to music is the least boring thing to do. just want to sit, listen, daydream, sleep. i really like to daydream, i makes you feel that you can do anything. that's what i like to do best i basically do that everyday. it's been a habit. everytime i lie down on my bed, trying to sleep. i end up daydreaming rather that sleeping. and what do i daydream about? well, my favorite daydream is, being able to play with my band at school. wow, i wish that came true. that would be the best. but, dreams are dreams. we can expect them to happen. and that's what i get from dreaming so much. hehehehe, ever wonder how super man feels when he gets close to kryptonite? well, i wud like to feel like that. being super man, "man of steel", "faster than a bullet". imagine how bullets felt, imagine how punches felt, imagine being hurt by kryptonite, then imagine, how would he feel, if his most weak part was broken. imagine how would superman deal with heartaches. well, it seems pretty hard, you basically can't be hurt by anything, then you got hit in the part where the pain couldn't be cured by any drug. how did he feel, losing lana lang, lois lane. does that even affected him? well, i wish someone could answer that. hehehe, i wish superman would answer this! hahahahaha;).

“you are my brand of heroin”

Dis comes from a discussion from school from quite a long time ago…”pol, ikaw n lang ata nde ngkakaron ng syota sa barkada ntin ah. Si martin, ngkaroon na. si rol, magkakaroon na. Ako, ngkaroon na ko. Kaw, kelan ka ba mgkakaroon?” I don’t remember my answer I made at that time, but if I were I asked again, I’d say “I don’t care, I can wait” well, I don’t care how long it takes, but.. if I can wait, why not. I think its worth the wait. I believe that it doesn’t matter how many gf you’ve had, what matters is you’re having fun with your current status. Hehehe. I’ll miss those guys. Even though we’ll still see each other, it wouldn’t be as often as we were in school. I’ll miss all of the people in that school. Even though they put me through hard time, its fine, coz I had fun being punished. Hahaha. Wish I could go back to that school. Wish I could go back to high school. Hay….. it’s a dream that can never be repeated. I wish I’d cry during grad, but, tears jus wont fall from these eyes. I don’t know why, but I do feel sad during that time. People surrounding me were crying, I wanted to…but I can’t. My tears only fall for certain reasons, and I don’t think that grad is one of it. Not even our loss in the speech choir was enough to make me cry. Even the recollection didn’t make me cry. I missed this times when crying is legal, I sucked. I’d really like to cry, coz I feel a lot better after crying. It fils like a whole load was taken from your shoulders. Well, I might still find time to do that. For now I’l juz focus on whats in front of me, summer vacation. Il find time to do all things I want to do. I’ll try to balance them so that I could have a better a summer vacation. Well, I’m happy for now. I wonder if it wud still continue….i hope so…coz I’m happy ryt now….<3 hehehe..dis is quite long so beter cut this short…heheheh…bye guys…..

Shit…wat a beautiful way to start a blog…I juz want to xpress myself di bes way I can….i don’t usually do dis wid talking to other people…but sumtimes…I juz nid to say it…juz wen I tot I wud be hapi..den it wud appir…sumting dat u wud least expect wud cum up and hit u on d face…well…im kinda disappointed…but to tell u d truth..I AM….well…its nothing that I can see everyday…its extraordinary….surely…I cant find d words to express myself…its hard to say ur happi wen ur not…dats jus it…well…as said from a movie…”soon enough we nid to choose whether to do wats ryt or to do wat is easy” well…im not sure if dat rily works…but I think it wud cum to dat…making choices..well…I don’t know what to pick…I’m sick of letting others get pass me and let them take the chance…I think I need to stand up and try to do thing d best way I can….hahahha…well I wish I cud do dat…but still il make sure il be fair along d way…hahahah…typically me…. I juz want to do things exactly to what I think I want…soo selfish….but still…I juz nid to be true…ul never find love…if u jus sit there waiting…well for boys..dis rily works for boys….heheheh…I don’t care if there’s many fish in the sea…so what if they’re many…durs only 1 fish I luv…I don’t nid dat much…I only nid 1..and I know who she i..now dat i found her...i don't want to lose her...sori...i jus nid to be selfih...if even just for once......

wow...wat a day...a lot of things happen this day...hahha...it was d grad of d pre skul..well everythin turned out normal..except that "gerry" got mad at us...hahahha...ul know it if ud rid the entry b4 this..hahaha..wel..i still don't know if im gonna obey his orders..coz i don't want to luk bad at my grad pic! hehehe welll thats one of things i have in mind this time..there's still a lot going in my mind..i olweis wori too much..i think its a habit that i can't take away from meits sumthing i think i was borned with...well its fine.. i think..coz..i don't know...i juz think so..hahahha..wat else cud i say..well...i sudenly had an urged to learn to play the piano...but i think i have not much time to learn..its sumthing that i wud like to learn ever since...but..i don't think that i'd still learn it...well...atlist i learned how to play the guitar...the only prob is..not all the songs i sing is popular..dats y people don't know what i'm playing and they couldn't sing to the song i sing..hahaha..i'm selfish at times...well only for sometimes...coz...dats juz not me...hehehe...ok...il stop dis now...hahaha...nxt time na lng ulit...hahaha...byebye! ♪♫♪

      hay.....lpit na ng grad...shet paks...nu b dpat ko gwin...hahaha...uko pa kc umalis eh...wow...tkot kc mg colege eh...gnun tlga. ntural nmn ata un dba? hahha. iiyak kya ko sa grad? ewan ko..di ko din alam eh...cguro, bhala na...kung my mgndang ngyri nun..nu ba gsto ko mngyri dun....wah..bd3p angulo ko pa din hngng ngaun..bd3p kc si gerry eh...gusto 2 by 3 pa buhok ko sa grad nmin! haup...nanakot pa xa! bka daw di xa 2mulong sa grad nmin...sus! mggwa nia nga kya un? hahaha...sana wlang anthonite na mkabasa n2...hahahaha....yari ako dun eh....pero seriously..mamimiss ko un mga tau sa St. Anthony...shet...ngaun pa...kng kelan nkita ko na xa...bd3p nman...di ko man lng xa nkausap bgo mgtpos un school year...bd3p tlga..sbgay...aus na un...nkakausap ko p nmn xa khit panu eh...hahaha...wa...1 wik na lng..grad na...hay....tnks na lng sa lhat...hahaha..sa teachers...sa clasmates...sa frends...sa mga special people...hahaha...un lng....kitakits...dadalaw pa nmn ako dyan sa skul eh..hahahah ♪

my last post was d thing that i wud rily like to say....
hahahah....its kinda emo....but thats juz me...i think...
thats the song that i rily like to here when im thinking
of you....but...unfortunately...she doesn't know that yet..
i wish i could tell...but....destiny doesn't approve it..
and i don't know if i like to take that risk..
(sigh)...il stop dis now...il try my best to do wat i can...
hehehe....

Waiting for your call, I'm sick
call, I'm angry
call, I'm desperate for your voice.
I'm listening to the song we used to sing in the car.
Do you remember, butterfly, early summer?
It's playing on repeat...
Just like when we would meet.

'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,
and I am torn to do what I have to,
to make you mine.
Stay with me tonight.

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh.
I am feeling so ambitious; you and me, flesh to flesh.
Because every breath that you will take
while you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes.
What's your fantasy?
What's your, what's your, what's your, what's your...

'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,
and I am torn to do what I have to,
to make you mine.
Stay with me tonight.

And I'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment
makes me want to come back home.
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have.)

'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,
and I am torn to do what I have to,
'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,
and I am torn to do what I have to,
to make you mine.
Stay with me tonight

"Take a risk today and try your hand at something that you've never done before."
this is my horoscope for this day....woh...i wud rily like to try but i can't ....coz...i juz can't...durs something that isn't ryt...and for as long as i know..there's only one thing that i've never done before...i know it...and mybe that's it...but how can i do it? (sigh) wahahahahah....it's ok...il juz try again nxt tym....mybe my luck will change....so il w8 again..im tired of w8ing....always w8ing....but...its gud to w8....i don't know y...but i crtainly enjoy w8ing...hahahah...so weird....dats juz me...weird...lazy...nd...a whole lot of other things....hahahahah.......dats ol.....